kiomia

kiomia @ 2008-05-31T20:54:00

2008-06-01T01:54:44Z

Today my sister got rejected by the company she sent her project to. She received it just before the family went to the restaurant of her choice. Right when she heard that it was a letter sent to her we both knew the news.

Her face went completely pale, and her lips literally turned white. In my life I've never seen blood lose out of another's face happen so fast. And I've never seen anyone's lips turn a color lighter then their skin. Pale skin I must say.

She was extremely upset. The car ride to Rock fish was the longest car ride. Also, I was really very upset, wondering what we should do next. I knew why Heather's wasn't accepted so they in conclusion would be a big negative for me as well.

Colored returned to her face later while she was eating but she didn't talk the whole time. Sorry Heather...

But later that night Heather and I spent our time laughing and feeling quiet a bit better then just hours before. We both read the whole letter and at the end they told her that she had a lot of potential and after some crit they said they hoped to see more of her work.

Though now I will have to stop all what I had planed and start on a new short comic at least Heather's a little bit more happy. I really wanted to get start on dreaming of Illusions because I love it so, but its all fine.

I'm kind of upset in a way because I feel as though people who knew her already knew she would not be accepted. My brother didn't read her comic nor did any of our friends. That was most upsetting to me I think....

It's all fine...
I think today I will rest and start on it tomorrow.

kiomia @ 2008-03-30T21:44:00

2008-03-31T02:55:26Z

My dad has serious problems. Really,....I'm not playing around.

Just a second ago while I was watching TV with my mom a joke led into an argument with my dad that had me so scared and wishing that my parents would get divorced so I could just live with my mom.

Mom saw some of dads trash on the counter and made a joke about it and asked him to pick it up. A few seconds later dad is cussing and yelling at her calling her all sorts of words that shouldn't be said in a house hold or anywhere for that manner. And I don't mean yelling....I mean.....his veins where coming out of his neck and he was practically spitting on her.

He kept accusing her of starting an argument. Suddenly he turned to me while I was sitting on the couch and he started cussing at me as well telling me to "fucking pick up the drink." Soon after that he threw the drinks at me and continued to cuss at my mom.

It got really quiet for a while because when things like this happen the last thing any of us want to do is make a conversation pless I was still in shock that he just threw a drink at me. Quietly I got up changed my cloths, cleaned the couch, and sat down.

Then just seconds after wards dad started yelling again like before calling my mom a bitch. Mom just kept telling him "What's wrong with you?!" "What the hell is wrong with you?!" "You need help." "You really just need help."

Dad just kept saying how he was just going to leave, to get away....and my mom said she wanted him too. I wanted him to.

Before he slammed the door to his room he called her a "fat bitch" and he didn't show up again.

..........It's when things like this happen.....I want to look my friends and my face and just cry. I look to people who make journals complaining about shit......treating their fans like shit.....and just shake my head at them.....

No one deserves this. I don't deserve this, especially my mom. She was just making a joke and even if it wasn't....my god.

kiomia @ 2008-02-05T19:37:00

2008-02-06T01:40:33Z

Candy man for Nat.

It just started raining....

kiomia @ 2008-02-03T14:36:00

2008-02-03T21:04:36Z

In 8 months I will be leaving to New York

During Senior Year some friendships fall, and some grow stronger. This may be because friends will depart and won't see each other as much as they did in the past. I guess this year made me realize who I was, who my friends where, and who my father was.

Dad has been really nice for the past few months and at first it pissed me off. How can some one who has been so cruel to you, out of no where be so nice to you. Dad...one day he must have realized that this all will end soon, and that he can no longer hold my past against me or himself. He finally let it all go.
So it is time for me to let it all go. Things will never be the way they used to be, and it's time to just say goodbye and move on smiling. I have been a lot nicer to father and will be after I leave. Because I am better then this.
Kids who say "Blah! I want to get away from this place! My family is stupid!: are truly idiotic, immature, and irresponsible people. You can't always run away from your problems.
The world doesn't always revolve around oneself, it revolves around no one but itself. Your friends are not characters in your life so just because you treat them like shit doesn't mean they will come back apologizing.

Yesterday night I grieved over losing what was good to me, but today I got up and smiled. Like in Macbeth, Macduff grieved like a man for his family before he got up to beat the crap out of Macbeth.

kiomia @ 2008-01-22T14:13:00

2008-01-22T20:18:46Z

I've been sick all weekend from the flu.... it's not really a surprise sense it seems like the whole art class came down with it, and a huge percentage of the school.
Today is the first day of the semester and I have 1st and 7th period off. More sleeping for me! YES! im so tired of waking up at 5:20 every morning. I'll be taking P.E this semester, which isn't so bad. It's fourth period so maybe i'll be in the same GYM as Alex, unless her class period changed.
I also got accepted into SVA! I'm excited but at the same time scared...because i'll have loans to pay off.

kiomia @ 2007-11-20T23:00:00

2007-11-21T05:00:51Z

How evil are you?

Im pure evil! yay~

kiomia @ 2007-11-13T16:20:00

2007-11-13T22:22:42Z

Hahaha

Aw I really miss Freakaziod! That had to have been the most random, most hilarious show I had ever seen. It's to bad that don't play it anymore....

kiomia @ 2007-11-11T16:32:00

2007-11-11T23:21:00Z

Yesterday I went about looking through my old journals, making most of them private because in ways I sort of realized I would rather keep most of personal opinions to myself. Blogging has never really been my thing, nor has my space. Failed to see the point in browsing around peoples pages leaving comments on friends pages and photos all day, but people have their hobbies. We all get bored.
Though I must say...while I was going through my past entries i was horrified; that BellZ picture. His head was huge! Like he has some sort of morphed tumor and poor baby needed some severe help.

I also started to read some short stories of H.P. Lovecraft, and i was really surprised. I fell in love with his way of structuring sentences and showing imagery with out using quotations. His sense of wording and vocabulary really drew me in and the symbolism in his stories is just amazing in itself. From the look of it I thought that his work would be of sort of spine chilling horror, but from I have seen it was just a unique sight at life itself. Violence, sex nor any sort of sense of fan service didn't exist, and after reading just a few pages a sort of comfort would come over me.

Also yesterday I decided to scan in my Dare picture:

With all do respect please do not comment on how much he looks like certain characters.Through past experiences I know it is easy to do so but please don't. From the earing on his ears to the red dye, there is symbolism in every aspect of every character I do. I have not designed him this way for my own eye candy. Meanwhile, I was really really happy with how this had turned out, even though this picture was drawn some time in March. Over the past few months I have tried to somehow less complicate my own style and make it more cartoony so that some how its more iconic and not so descriptive that way people's minds can take their own leaps in ways of trying to take a character in. Yeah that didn't work. It always ended up turning into some version of the style i am showing you now. But I do love him allot. At first he had dark brown hair but heather pointed out maybe having red hair because that is how she pictured him and that it may make his characterization more present. I must say I agree even though red hair is illustrated way to often but then i came to conclusion that it dominates that "fake" part of his character.

kiomia @ 2007-11-08T19:09:00

2007-11-09T01:17:38Z

1. Smoked. []
2. Consumed alcohol. []
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. []
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [X]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [] (Does that include my mom?)
6. Had sex. []
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [X]
8. Watched porn. []
9. Bought porn. []
10. Done drugs. []

TOTAL : 2

1. Taken painkillers. [X]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. []
3. Lied to your parents. [X]
4. Lied to a friend. [X]
5. Been to rehab. []
6. Done something illegal. []
7. Cut yourself. [](uuh? you mean like emo? no)
8. Hurt someone. [X]
9. Been to a club. []
10. Seen someone die. []

TOTAL: 3

1. Missed curfew. []
2. Stayed out all night. [X]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. []
4. Been to a therapist. []
5. Snuck out of the house. []
6. Dyed your hair. []
7. Received a ticket. []
8. Been in an accident. []
9. Wished someone to die. [X]
10. Been to a pub. []

TOTAL : 2

1. Been to a wild party. []
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. []
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. []
4. Had a spring break in Florida. []
5. Sniffed anything. []
6. Wore black nail polish. []
7. Wore arm bands. []
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [X]
9. Listened to rap. []
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. []

TOTAL : 1

1. Dressed Gothic. []
2. Dressed prep. []
3. Dressed punk. [X]
4. Dressed grunge. []
5. Stolen something. []
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. []
7. Blacked out. []
8. Fainted. []
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [X]

TOTAL : 2

1. Snuck into someone else's room. []
2. Had a crush on your friend. [X]
3. Been to a concert. []
4. Dry-humped someone. []
5. Been called a slut. []
6. Called someone a slut. [X]
7. Installed speakers in your car. []
8. Broken a mirror. []
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. []
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [X]

TOTAL : 3

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. []
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. []
3. Cruised the mall. []
4. Skipped school. []
5. Had surgery. []
6. Had an injury. [X]
7. Gone to court. []
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. []
9. Caught something on fire. []
10. Lied about your age. [X]

TOTAL : 1

1. Owned/rented an apartment. []
2. Broken the law in the police's presence. []
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. []
4. Got in trouble with the police. []
5. Talked to a stranger. [X]
6. Hugged a stranger. []
7. Kissed a stranger. []
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [X]
9. Been harassed. []
10. Been verbally harassed. [X]

TOTAL: 3

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. []
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [X]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [X]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. []
5. Been to a fair. [X]
6. Been called a bad influence. []
7. Drink and drive. []
8. Prank-called someone. []
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [X]
10. Cheated on a test. [X] (Who doesn't?)

TOTAL : 5

FINAL TOTAL : 23

im average...hoohoo hoohoo hoo

-If You Have Less Then 10..write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10..write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]

kiomia @ 2007-11-03T13:46:00

2007-11-03T19:00:32Z

1. Are any of your characters daring enough to wear a cheetah-print skirt?

No- wait...yeah teddy probably would xD. Thats only cuzz he is can be pretty stylish. (if his sister isn't dressing him up)

2. Underwear?

Cheetah print undies? Um no not even teddy

3. Speaking of which, if you had to buy one of your attractive characters new underwear, what would you get them?

Just....some boxers?

4. Do any of them have irrational fears in the bed? If so, of what?

Teddy is scared of the boogie man.

5. Incense or Marvin Gaye?

-what?

6. Which could handle being naked in public?

None of them haha.

7. …A slap on the butt or a slap on the boob?

If teddy got slapped in any of those areas he would be mighty confused, if it were Cleo she would be extremely offended but just kinda stand there and take it. Wait..none of my characters would want to be violated.

8. Ever wanted to grab one of your character’s crotches? If so, whose?

There is something wrong with you, like seriously.

9. Have you ever made up penis sizes for your male characters, even if the information would never be used in the actual narrative?

Well now you actually have me thinking about this. No i haven't ever thought about the size of their penis's or...boobs for that matter.

10. If you answered yes to the last question, give us the penis length. (If no, tell us your preferred penis length for a potential mate.)

NO what is WRONG with you?

11. Even if against their will, who would make the best exotic dancer?

Hahahaha yea...Teddy. Though i must say he would be the worst.

12. Have you ever paired one of your characters with an already established one from a television show/anime/movie/video game?

No- that's really unprofessional. Why would I picture this? They are my characters not prostitutes.

13. If you answered yes to the last question, what’s their theme song? (If no, just give me a random sensual song.)

Theme song?

Cleo: You are the Moon
Teddy: The Package
Taylor: Twisted Transistor
Sophia: Eileen
Shadowed man: Let Go

14. Interested in bondage?

no....

15. Do you hate yaoi?

I really dislike being weak to anything like drugs money or sex. If the picture is romantic and beautiful then yes because I do support gays but no i wouldn't like it to exercise my sexual mind.

16. Yuri?

same as above

17. Would you be offended if I referenced one of your character’s bumholes?

...what why? Please don't.

18. Uke x Seme, Uke x Uke, or Seme x Seme?

None? or all? does it matter?

19. Are any of your characters virgins?

Yes all of them are except maybe Taylor.

20. Are any of your characters sexual deviants?

Nope.

kiomia @ 2007-10-18T15:20:00

2007-10-18T20:31:37Z

Yeah I always see these silly damn Quizs ...had to take one i guess *girlish teenage roll eye move*- wow that sounded like an awesome Teken 5 attack (wait... there is a Teken 5 right?)

[] Gotten detention.
[] Gotten your phone taken away (and it was in elementary school, in 8th grade when I wasn't in class and it rang...the teacher took it away.)
[] Gotten in school suspension
[] Got sent to the principals office.
[] Chewed gum during class. (gum bothers me...)

[] Gotten more than 8 tardys
[x] Didn't do homework over 3 times
[] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[] Talked too much and got kicked out of class (this is rare. )

[x] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[] Text people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher (Wait what do you mean..? My art teacher is halarious)

[] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[] myspace, friendster, xanga, etc. on the computer at school. (Yea...Alex was doing it and i wanted to be cool...8-B )
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[] Called someone during school hours.
[] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3 during class.

[] Threw something at the teacher.
[] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

[] Ditched a program/assembly (a lot of times until grade 10, my friend and I stopped because we got caught by the principal.)
[] Got written down on your permanent record.
[] Called out
[x] Tried to open someone else's locker (for gym cloths)

[] Gotten a call home
[] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school (very forgetful...)
[] Gotten a detention and didn't go
[] Stuck your middle finger at a teacher. (under a desk and inbetween my legs)
[] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.

[] Slept in class. (for maybe a minute or so)
[x] Cursed at a teacher (under my breath)
[x] Copied hw
[] Felt hungry during class and left to eat (twas before lunch time.)
[] Got into so many fights.

Imma bad kid .___.

Total= 11
Times your total by 3

badass=33%

Damn i am a good kid O.o, though yea...I like to respect my elders.

kiomia @ 2007-10-12T14:08:00

2007-10-12T19:33:01Z

"As for growing up, I don't think many people grow up as they move into different problems and responsibilities. How you take the responsibilities at hand and endure with them if you do endure them. Fuck "grown ups", fuck "manly" bullshit, fuck "everybody says" and fuck "rites of passage", its all a bunch of bullshit made by little people to attain a status of superiority and domination. Rise above it.Give yourself credit and thank yourself for being you and only you and fighting to be yourself because everything has a price and you'll have to pay for it in this life or the next. Thank your fucking self not anyone else!"

How I agree so much with that statement.

I've been really tired the whole day, The feeling of Fridays is as much appealing as dissatisfying, ugh...

My irritability was pretty extreme today when I wanted to hurt my fucking art teacher. As much as i love her I HATE her. She is forcing us to use Chalk and draw a stupid robot thing on a 3 foot by 3 foot paper. People continually asked her "Hey to you mind if we not use chalk." "Can we not use such huge paper." But she refused to let it go and let us artist do what we please. First of all i hate chalk, the whole class HATES chalk and let me remind you that 3 ft by 3 ft paper is HUGE!!! I hate drawing that big...so i asked if i could draw it on smaller paper " No your gonna do it MY way!" fucking prick i wanted to shove a pool stick up her nose. Nobody in the class wanted to do robots...we all agreed on "Monsters or winged monsters" for halloween because it gave us allot of free space to do what we wanted, but no...apearantly her alone decided differently.

So my teacher walks by my desk and points says to me "Hey I am doing this generously for you sense this is what you like to do." and i just replied saying "No i don't actually and thank you for getting me mixed up with heather." My sister Heather said she liked robots the day before and she is in the same class as me, and as my twin so often i hear the same questions over and over. No I really don't mind the questions, really ^^.
the whole "Are you twins?" "Can you read each others minds." "do you ever switch classes" has been asked more then i can count and i really don't mind. Everyone is different, just because Jessica asked me if i am a twin won't mean Taylor will know so he is going to ask also.

What irritates me is when people mix us up after knowing us for months-years....confusing what I saw with what my sister says. Saying that I like to argue when its not me who likes to argue when it is actually my sister. When it gets to a point when your SISTER gets into a fight and suddenly your in one because the other person fails to see a difference between the people in front of them. When your friends give you nasty ass looks for no reason what so ever because they dislike my sister thats when it pisses me off.

So back to my point...I am cutting my black paper as the cutter and she yells "HEY TWIN! did you cut it right." Oh god....no. Please don't call me twin. She knows I hate it when people call me "twin." she KNOWS it but she does it to piss me off. When people call you "twin" it's seeing you as one person. It shows that they showed no attempt at all to even trying to tell you apart.

..Sigh...yea sorry for my irritability, and no I'm not on PMS hahaha....I just wanted to get it off my chest because the twin thing can really bother me over the years.

I don't mind if people get my names mixed up...I know some of my friends feel really bad about that, but i do answer to both names now.( I like answering to my name only but now its a reflex). People get faces mixed up with names...yea...

On a positive note, i almost got teddy sketched ^^, yaaayyy

kiomia @ 2007-10-09T13:56:00

2007-10-09T18:57:01Z

SO...frustrated...

kiomia @ 2007-10-06T18:22:00

2007-10-06T23:23:12Z

yay.^^

We all drove for 3 hours to austin, and man was it a painful ride. Phoenix Wright was by my side though, i got to play the game didn't get to far though. Damn its a hard game! (the second game, or at least i think its hard personally ^^;).

When I got there I was sweating bullets..scared to shit. You know that feeling of being really nauseas and shaking allot? Yes i had that feeling as I stood in a REALLY long time. Looking around I saw beautiful artwork, paintings...sculptors and in my head all I thought was "OH SHIT!!! i am so screwed!" I love my artwork allot but I am a cartoonist...i don't like realism much....but for portfolio day I was forced to go out of my comfort zone and do something a bit more 3 dimensional....I also didn't have to much time to bring my portfolio together so i really didn't know how good i was.

When I finally got to the people of SVA I stood and showed them my work, as I signed there little paper I was shaking like crazy...I hope they can actually read my hand writing.
She looked through it all and at first i was thinking that she hated it. She sat and gave me alot of critism on what i should work on...what I should add, it really didn't look to promising. She also compared some one of my pictures to Jhonen (she pronounced it as Yohan) and when i heard it I couldn't help but correct her. It must have came off as really rude because she gave me a really weird look and said "oh...well i thought it was Yohan."

The picture looked absolutely nothing like his work though! No resemblance whatso ever. Actually the picture she was comparing is the one i drew for Lenore.."Catch me Get me." Maybe you guys think it does....but i wasn't even thinking of jhonen when drawing it. The eyes are small...the legs...arms...nothing is the same...so i was startled.
Damn like my heart sunk into my like...liver.....

But then she just puts all my work together hands it to me and says "Ok you passed the visual, all you need to do is turn in your application." and she just stood there and i just.....stared at her...like "WHAT?!" "Say that again?" In my head I sort of thought it would be like Top chief were they give you a dramatic pause a shifty eye and wait for you to literally piss yourself before telling you anything.

I am still in a Daze about it all...like what? RYE-BREAD is currently going there...he is like really good! i thought this would be so difficult...

Oh well i love SVA :3, i really really enjoyed my time there so i am soo happy.

I stopped by Ringling and some other school and they said I had potential to get into their schools but i needed to put a little more to it...but they seemed a little iffy about it because it was mostly cartoons. That really...really...made me feel down...they were just so "50%" on it all. The Texas school guy only told me stories and made fun of my sense my figure drawing models didn't have arms or hands (i swear i didn't even notice i left then out!) .....so i am like....how the hell did i get into SVA?

OH OH! my sister got in too,ImagineTheEnding, They LOVED her artwork....more then mine, the ringling school loved her..thought she was really talented. *so jelous*

Well I am happy for once :3, don't really have a reason to be negative.

and a tip for art majors: NO ANIME!! NO NO NO. If you do anime do your own style all together, they hate it. Be yourself.

woo...now all i need to do is hope they actually accept the application.

kiomia @ 2007-10-05T21:08:00

2007-10-06T02:10:45Z

Portfolio day tomorrow... All the art students were supporting me, so i felt really good for once, my parents also cheered me on as well.

Even though when i look down on my pictures and...I feel a bit ashamed cuzz i know i could do better, i am still proud of it.

I am so used to like failing that I've already planned out how it will all go afterwards...haha wow i am pathetic. *cry*.

Man no one comments my LJ anymore O.o. Oh well i am tired.
Here is one picture, i don't like it as much as my other ones but i wanted to show you :3.

kiomia @ 2007-09-21T19:29:00

2007-09-22T00:39:18Z

I really envy people who draw like this http://snooka.deviantart.com/art/lawls-49198428

Yea...it's pretty weird to say from someone like me. Most often people want to smack me in the face and they yell "Have you SEEN your drawings."

But really...I do envy them. Even though that picture if of Jthm there is a style to it. Even through nothing is in paportion something about it thats nice. With me I look at Jhonen's work and I say "wow its amazing." But I know that if it had been me drawing it would have hated it.
The nose is to close to the chin, the mouth is to close to the nose. The eyes aren't symmetrical with the rest of his body, why do the shoulders look weird?

The reason why i love cartoons and want to major in cartoons is get out of my head and challenge myself. I know I pretty much suck at cartoons, and my realistic pictures...*sigh*. I mean they look good...I guess? People always say they do but it bores me. Everything has laws, the nose has to be this far from the eyes.....blah blah blah. I hate it.

Like I do envy my sister to...

Every time i try and draw my own style (don't really...have one yet) I end up just hating it....it never has feeling to it...the lines don't amaze me. When I draw Aaron's work...Jhonen...anyone I Love the way the lines fall onto each other. It seems that gravity falls on it right and that its symmetrical.

Its not like some really freaking crazy shit out there who's art work are really fast lines and no real deferent volume to it.

People may wish to switch spots with me, draw like how i can. But i actually envy you..and wish i were you. When I draw its about mathematics. It's not to much on how fun it is...it doesn't come from me...it doesn't.....feel right.

I can't believe how much i question myself as the day goes on. What will become of me? IS there is a point?

I think to much...sorry. Though i hope to get into SVA, i have tried really hard. Or have I?

kiomia @ 2007-08-31T19:48:00

2007-09-01T03:33:13Z

Had a whole entry planned out...but i just...wanted to type to myself...it's just something i need to type because I wouldn't know how to say it in words you can go ahead and laugh at the first part haha... I had that whole scene in my head for days.

____________________________________
03051221

.... you know I've been thinking, I know that I always look back in my life and say how much I want to be there and never here. I am always regretting things and remembering all the bad events and people that go by. In ways I always just said that I have changed, that I miss the times when I saw something when I looked out my bus window. I just didn't see trees, I didn't see the water, I saw a story. Many times I thought I would be able to share it with someone else. For the past year all I think about is how horrible the events were in my life, and how the hell I am going to pick myself up.
The past few days, there is a sinking feeling in my stomach every time I try to pick up a pencil. I get so frustrated and so nervous that the only thing to distract me from my fears, from my worries is music. It's a distraction....it's something.
At this moment in time I want this to last forever.
I don't feel bad for things that I have done, I don't regret the way my life is going. Maybe people will tell me "Well thats good Michelle ^^" and maybe thats ok.

I am just scared that I won't remember that the world around you is a story, its a beautiful place. That maybe when you look into the Moon...and you look into those stars somehow some way you will reach to were you want to be. You can escape and live in a world surrounded by what you loved as a child and everything you believed.

Sometimes we forget. I don't ever want to forget, I never want to forget the happy moments in my life. When I go to sleep and I wake up....I hope it doesn't go away.

Because it always does.

When I grow up and when I become something, and if I do...Please...just keep me as me. Don't make me into a someone you know I am not. Help me remember my dreams, remember Kayame....remember my friends.

Maybe I won't get into SVA, but I am going to try. Maybe tomorrow I will wake up, and it will all be different...its always different but I just...want to remember and be me.

kiomia @ 2007-08-26T01:30:00

2007-08-26T06:33:20Z

"Every comic should be nothing but hot, hot Tetris."-Aaron A.

Haha....that's the comment he made when he saw the comic heather and I drew, she tends to like to spam his live journal....psft

Loser.

Just play'n, anyways I really liked this video: http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/396301
So enjoy!

kiomia @ 2007-08-16T16:56:00

2007-08-16T22:03:10Z

Yes...senior pictures, did anyone dislike that.

I took those today, taking pictures is really awkward especially for me sense i look terrible in them. But we had a lot of fun, there was this on lady working there that kept making us laugh. At some point she just kept messing around with my hair and cracking jokes while she was at it and her assistant kept getting mad at her because we could never get a photo done, she also tried to put lip stick on me, she kept saying "Pucker up!" and i just couldn't stop giggling because of how silly it was. I really really dislike lip stick so i really don't even know how to put it on...so it just looked so bad, and it was my mom's lip stick! Bright brown lip stick. She also braided my hair at some point too so i looked like a Texas cow girl.

Sense it was both My sister and I taking pictures it took a really long time, we did single photos then we did some together and man the people behind us in line (there was a long long line) were so inpatient and frustrated.

And well I think I'm not to sure how they turned out.....I think i may have blinked a few times.

Hmm...Art work wise I am doing a little funny comic, but i really haven't drawn much. damn..i need to work on my portfolio.

kiomia @ 2007-08-15T23:15:00

2007-08-16T04:19:06Z

School will be starting soon. I must say I'm not to excited nor am i really to bummed out. Art classes are taking up most of my schedule, but i do have Team sports G on my schedule...and that may be a bad thing. I don't remember signing up for it.

Nothing really has been up, just been working on my portfolio for SVA and hope i get in.
Struggling with Comics too- I may not be doing the S.E.Z for right now. My main priority is to be my portfolio and Holy Upawns so wish me luck.

Here is a list of useful supplies for Cartoon artist (SVA told us good supplies)=

Bistrol Papper= Nice paper, if you love Mechanical pencil you will love this, and ink will not go through it so i LOVE this paper.
I prefer 14 by 17 because its big but not too big.

Nice tip: if your trying to do comics get a ruler and measure 1 inch around and use it for a border. When comics get published the scanner
cuts off the edges so you better be save then sorry.

http://www.misterart.com/store/view/001/group_id/286/STRATHMORE-400-Series-Bristol-Pad.htm

Amazing white out for those ink smudges or nasty spots= http://www.misterart.com/store/view/001/group_id/2690/DR-PH-MARTIN-S-Bleed-Proof-White.htm

Series 7 brushes are the best brushes you can use. I actually love this brushes because they give a nice line technique but also good for coloring back grounds=
http://www.misterart.com/store/view/001/group_id/2690/DR-PH-MARTIN-S-Bleed-Proof-White.htm

G-Nips, well they are really hard to fine but these are Japaneses pens, probably the pens you see in manga.
(don't have a link sorry).

Black ink (this doesn't clog up your nibs)=http://www.docmartins.com/cpoint201/category.htm?categoryId=14514

Red ruler on the right is an amazing ruler=http://www.misterart.com/store/view/001/group_id/6486/C-Thru-Graphic-Art-Rulers.htm

and omg the BEST pens EVER (though exspensive)=http://www.misterart.com/store/view/001/group_id/930/KOH-I-NOOR-Rapidograph-Slim-Pack-Sets.htm
Saved my life! they are expensive but worth it >.

kiomia @ 2007-04-21T21:34:00

2007-04-22T02:48:44Z

Yea...watched a really good move called Hot Fuzz today. Really funny actually.

I tried to look back through my really old journals that i wrote wayy back whenever I was a kid. It was a wish of mine that I would grow and never lose sight of who i was. I've lost the sight of it complettly and... i really dislike it. I remember when i was a child I would sing "I will find you, please don't worry i will find my way." Man it might sound really corny now but those quotes meant alot to me. The world was beautiful, i used to sit outside...looked at the stars...admired the trees on my way to school. I had always wanted to be an anime wife...take care of my husband, cooked cleaned. To me the world was like a crazy prison....and I wanted to fly away. I really wanted to sit in a little ranch area near a waterfall....

Now....I can barely barely grab ahold of that. Yeah i "grew up" alright....guys lets just sit with each other and talk about how grown up we all are. Actually to me we all just grow into tastless things. What happened? While i am sitting here thinking about all this......my other friends are having a wonderful fucking time. Just laughing their asses off. MAN! i wish i could just sit here and regret doing every fucking icon....drawing every fucking art peice because it didn't do SHIT!

Yea... i lost that dream apperantly.....I had done.....all these things....for you...and i sit here thinking of the situation i am in.

I hope....you all live wonderful lives really.....thats all that i would have ever wanted. I plan on saving the past me...and maybe you....ill save something.

Monsters also do a reverse effect on me btw. I tried drinking one yesterday and today....hyper? No way I am really really really tired.

Moraly mortafied

2007-03-29T00:17:44Z

*pale to face*.

Argh... I was just downstairs drawing and I heard a whole bunch of noise outside...like a bunch of birds and squeaks. Something ran into the outside doors and windows scratching and squeaking.
I looked outside to see that the hell was going on and Tracy had a live squirrel in its mouth.
I just backed away in shock because Tracy my dog usually doesn't attack things. I went and sat down at the table hoping Tracy had just killed the thing. A little later I went back and looked out the back window and she was just biting at it and it just tried to get away.
She was just biting at it like it was a toy or something....and I just felt so awful. Yeah maybe im just too nice to see that type of thing but I was so upset that she was just biting at it like a toy. The poor things legs were all bloody and crap. I ended up knocking at the window to get the dogs attention and Tracy just looked at me with those damn beady eyes and I was like SHIT!

I just kept looking back and forth from the damn dog to the squirrel. The poor thing was breathing so hard and it too was looking right at me like "for the love of Christ please save me."

So I just sat there knocking at the door looking up and down really thinking about letting the dog in so it wouldn't bit at it.

You know if I let the damn squirrel live it will die from blood lose and ants....or I can let me dog bite at it once in a while and torture it to death.
God...I feel awful....I know my dog like kills things but I don't want to see it kill something.
I ended up just letting Tracy inside....and my dad got mad at me and said the dog was a good dog for killing the thing.

My dad pisses me off so much he pet the dog and said "good job." If there was anyone i could shoot in the face-

He got mad at me saying i made it worse...that now the poor squirrel will just lay there in pain for a really long time. Man... i know that...I knew that but i just couldn't let it lay though and walk off, i wouldn't be able to sleep at night with that thought.
-Yes Kiomi is way to nice...and caring.
*shouts to the heavens* I saved you squirel! Or i tried to! im sorry! *laughs* At least the squeril knows somone was out to save him, though im sure if i got near that squirel he would have bit me. The irony.

On the other hand...I got Theodores character design done =). I'm really happy with it. Last night i was so upset though because I ended up geting an error and couldn't save the photoshoped version....argh

You know you love his geekiness =3.
-Next up is sophia...
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Holy Upawns

2007-03-27T00:07:44Z

Currently working on (or was)

This is a little preivew of a picture Iam hoping to have done at some point ^^. This is Bellz that photographer that takes beautiful photos.(of himself xDDDD). I kind of doubt I'll ever get the picture finished. I might just color it with flat colors and just submit it. I have way to much going on to want to finish it anyways. I've sort of lost the point in drawing things for other people, I wish i had that inspiration too...but i don't. Everytime i try to finish coloring it a damn error comes up in Adobe *shakes fist* and i just say "fuck it" and give up. The mouth was really irritating. He also has like a plasticy looking nose. >.< I still want to post it on DA sometime because i spent a really really long time on the outlineing.

Hmm.. well at this moment I'm going to be trying to do a story called Holy Upawns. I wanted to do somthing with a mix of american and japanese culture. I absolutly love how American shows and comics build their conflicts...they always have so much more meaning and when you see it your mouth drops. The problem with Marvel comics is that there is never any character development. Its hard for me to read past 3 pages because i just don't give a damn what the main character is going through. On the other hand Japanese comics always have a very well developed story, the characters are lovable and the artist actually helps you get to know the character just enough for you to actually care about them. The japanese comics to me... are well... to upbeat and carefree. The moral's kind of lack. Like in Ouran Host Club (love this anime +_+) its nice they point out that you shouldn't love somone for appereances but really now...do men really act that way? So i really really like the characterization in Japanese anime and the realistic drama in American comics. I'm going to try and mix both ^^.

In Holy upawns the characters faces and bodies are really soft and delecate but their eyes are to be more firm and american. The comic will consist of entirely symbolism. There is probably nothing in the book that doesn't have meaning in it. Every character's characterstic shows a symbol to our lifes today. The enimies, dreams, backgrounds, and names mean alot. Its a nice comic for people who like to analyze. On the other hand...if people like a book to just read and lay back I have it built for just that as well.
The story starts out with a introduction of a hint of darkness....but when the characters meet its a little upbeat...untill the first chapter ends with a dramatic twist.
I have thought out about everthing the characters represent and plan out exactly how they act so the people who read it will love it as much as I do.
The main character guy looks like a typical american geek but he gets currupted and looks like a Japanese figure changing the world of their school. I thought that was a really nice touch ^^, it would seriously be like the 80s (90s) american superheroish comics mixed in with what is popular now.
I think people will really love it and im really actually very confident in it. I think i should be ^^...

Um lets see....I need to submit the outline in Summer so i have alot of work to do:
a summary of each issue, The character sheets, The cover sheet, 5 example pages from the book and a synoposis.

So far I've almost got Theodore's character sheet done and i've drawn Teddy's body. Hmm I'm having a hard time doing the front view of Theodores head....argh...hopfully ill get it done soon.

After that Im going to try to write the script of issue 1
Draw a contest entry
Draw Character sheets to issue 2
Go back to issue one and re-edit it with my sister
Write script to chapter 2
Draw another contest entry
Draw Character sheets for issue 3
GO back to chapter 2 and edit
and so on... xD

Other then that nothing else is really up. I've been feeling a bit bad about things sense well all I ever do is draw. I don't seem to have time to spend with jenni anymore... This weekend she wants to go to Cici's, maybe we can go back to my house afterwards and watch trigun ^^.

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